So this book is shifting things in my heart...its really crazy to me. I bought it for 53cents at a thrift store. Basilea wrote the book My All for Him that awakened bridal love in my heart years ago. Here's an excerpt from the book/her journal that she wrote about how to overcome...one of the many messages of her life. If you love me you'll read all of it...haha. But for real it's crazy how this applies to my heart in so many ways, and the many hearts of those I love so dearly...those I hope for always. "Watchwords for hours of temptation in the face of seemingly hopeless battles against sin; what I want to tell myself during hours of temptation when all my fighting is in vain: 1. Its is my own fault that the chains are so tight, because I neglected to repent of my sin for so long and did not fight the battle of faith which would have led to victory. Therefore, the chains became tighter and stronger, and now, in all humility, I have to wait until God frees me. But I want to fight because victory is there. No matter how long it takes, I won't give up the fight--even if it is ten times the vain--until I am free. 2. God wants to test my faith. He wants to teach me to believe, as He taught the sisters of Lazarus. He withdraws His aid to teach me to have faith even before I can catch the slightest glimpse of victory. And if I learn to have faith I will be able to see the glory of God. That was the purpose of the resurrection of Lazarus, and that will be the purpose of the story of my battle. 3. God's withdrawal of aid makes me feel my chains and my impotence. He does this to humble me and to make sure that He will receive the honour in the end, that I will praise Him alone. This is why I want to learn humility from this inner conflict. And while the chains do not become any easier, I do not want to complain or become discouraged but rather I want to be as humble as the woman of Syrophoenicia, who begged and begged again, when Jesus seems to repel me and refuse to help. If this inner battle makes me humble and patient, then this conflict, no matter how long it lasts, will have brought me victory and eternal fruit, transformation into His image. Perhaps it will also make me mature enough to take part in the first resurrection, where there will only be overcomers and humble people. 4. That is why I want to be thankful for the revelation of my sin and great temptation, because it is precisely here that I will be able to experience victory and the glory of Jesus, for Jesus truly sets us free. I want to thank God that this temptation is cleansing me from other sins, which are coming to light through these temptations, and making me an overcomer who will one day inherit a crown. Without holiness no one will see the Lord. He who overcomes will inherit everything." | 
